God is a Planner too. His words, not mine:
’For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord…
Well, it’s a good thing, because I don’t.
Life has a way of unexpectedly knocking us on our asses every now and then. In my case, it was the end of a 13 year marriage that I genuinely expected to last forever. The undoing of it all broke my heart, challenged my faith, and splintered my family.
It left me asking myself, “What the hell?”
I was absolutely stunned to discover that little-miss-prepared-like-a-girl-scout had no Plan B.
It left me uncertain about my future and that of my children. For months, I felt excrutiatingly vulnerable. I felt isolated and judged by people I had once considered to be close friends. I felt painfully alone. And well, I was pretty shocked.
A real turning point…
…came for me when I finally let myself get good and mad – and cuss! I spent a whole month cussing. Big hot tears and BIG CAPITAL LETTERS in my journal. Oh and I cussed out loud – sometimes really loud! And, I cussed to God. (I figured He’s heard it all anyway.) It was not a pretty point in my life. But I suppose most turning points aren’t. I had no Plan B. And, I needed to know:
What the hell am I going to do now?
Apparently God’s got this question before. Because immediately He answered,
‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ says the Lord… (Jeremiah 29)
Wow. Indescribable peace. That’s all I needed to know. That was well over a year ago, and I still don’t know the whole plan. But, I am happy to know someone’s got one. And well, I’m pretty cool with the fact that it’s God.
And ya know, I’m glad I spent a whole month cussing. But, I am not gonna live my life in that place. I refuse to be jaded and bitter. I refuse to be angry, depressed, or alone. Life is awesome! And, I want to LIVE mine – all the way!
So, that’s what Type A Plans B is all about. Getting knocked on your ass, and coming up swinging. It’s about owning what’s yours and moving on. It’s about a Type A learning to freakin’ chill out. It’s about being comfortable to discover Plan B as I go. Life’s a little more messy this way. But, I like it.
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